I still wonder why you hurt me the way you did.

You were my everything. You really were.

It’s been 3 months. 3 months without you has felt like 3 years. How can I still be so madly in love with you? I really wish I could just stop, just wake up one day and erase you entirely from my memory (but then I start thinking about Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and realize you gave me the happiest 4 years I could have ever asked for).

One day I know I’ll wake up and realize I no longer love you, but I know that day is still so far. sigh.